I am very disappointed!!!1

I am very disappointed. I wait for call A. but, why he has changed now. whether because of pain, or his feeling like me or he really does not like me. I do not know why,I can not accept fiq in my life. I consider him a good friend only. he was loyal. I do not know why .. I just feel at A. because I have no feeling in other men .. ya allah .. help me. I hope I can be forget all about A .. I know, I just "ss" in dis case.. help me  God. I do not want him to hate me. hence, I did not dare to send a message to A. I decide, I do not want to bother him alive again.I can not accept him as a friend. I do not know why. but, in reality. I really miss him too much..

only god knows

I do not know why I so like this. I am too jealous of the of  de others success..

and I too jealous of the my own siblings. 

yela, I am nobody in this world.

When we married, all will change. why?

whether I was an arrogant?

I do not why families like the other families.

I promise to myself  that I will go far,

intention is not far from my own family

I am not intent on insisting and I brought up.

only, I need peace and love from others.

I want to alone .. O God. help me find the best solution.

O God.